Hallo Emilie -
I can't say that I've ever felt as if I was actually there. I've heard or read some folks describe the way in which they were drawn to the disaster in quasi-mystical or near religious terms, and for some the pull is inexplicable. I've never viewed it in anything like that light myself - Titanic is not my sole area of research interest. I won't go into great detail, but there are certain elements of life in Ancient Egypt during the Amarna period that intrigue me. A number of influential and interesting women emerged during the Tudor period that also have a draw. Irish history, particularly the War of Independence and the Civil War, resonate well both with my interest in the complexities of nationalism and my religious and cultural background. The American Civil War was the product of involved issues that are intriguing to contemplate, and involved men such as Abraham Lincoln and Joshua Lawrence Chamberlain that appeal to both my political background and love of language and ideas.
I tend to take be somewhat old-fashioned in my interest in historical personages rather than movements and wider forces, seeing the latter mainly through a fascination with the former. My interest in the Titanic is the combination of a number of identifiable factors, such as my environment (living by the sea engendered a love of the ocean and a fascination with ships and seafaring, and this naturally progressed into a focus on the crew of the Titanic) and the draw of the cultural and social mileau of the pre-WWI era.
It's not a big problem, but you've posted this in a specific thread regarding dining aboard the ship - that may hinder getting responses to your question. As you read into the history of the board, or if you do a search on the board in some of the more general topics, you'll find that many other people have come forward with reasons why they feel so drawn to this particular event.
I'm not sure what mistakes you're worried about making, but if it's your English you're concerned about I wouldn't be at all worried if I were you! Your meaning is coming across clearly in all your posts.